me, myself n CAT

at the moment life seems to be meaningless unless I crack this CAT but why I think that way..?? there is life beyond CAT n IIMs.. (A)

for the last 4 years .. m aiming to bag this Cat but it has always slipped. m I good enough for it.. lets put it more clearly.. 4 years n 3 serious attempts n what happened those 3 times.. in 1st my admit got was lost.. in 2nd this cat got cancelled n by the time I wrote the Re-Cat.. I changed job and got involved in some stupid stuffs..n 3rd one is the CAT 2004..

4.., I always thought.., is my lucky no.. but is it..? the year was 4 and even it was 4th attempt..but whats the result..?? 99.11 and one call from Indore.. heck.. m angry, dissappointed and broken.. ohh god ..why it happened with me..?? m not that bad in verbal.. even being the unluckiest dnt I deserve 90 percentile..

had papa's illness put some distraction on my preperation..? n why I couldnt sleep on CAT night? papa was diagnosed with that problem.. but why during CAT..?? there r manyth which I wud like to ask from the almighty.. 3 time unlucky.. seems like m not destined to get into IIMs.. I knw.. there are many other unlucky people who were more deserving than me..but m being in this group 3 times.. seems like m some lesser children of the god..

at the moment.. may b m not destined for IIMs (A).. but think... is it a omen for some better things or its my destiny?? I guess I'll ve this answer soon...